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A few months ago, I signed up for a virtual course on meditation run by the loverly Sharon Rudyk. I committed to meditating daily, and participated in a virtual book club discussion about Phillip Moffitt’s book, “Dancing with Life: Buddhist Insights for Finding Meaning and Joy in the Face of Suffering.”
While I enjoyed the reading and the discussion that followed, I found the daily meditation practice to be life changing.
I started with 10 minutes of meditation each morning. No music on in the background. No guided meditations to keep me distracted or entertained. I simply focused on my breathing and being still.
I will be the first to admit that this chronic DOER had a really hard time just being still.
I had trouble clearing my mind and simply focusing on my breath. Which often led to judgment and criticism. My brain would spew hate, like “How difficult is it to just breath?!” and “If you can’t do this for 10 minutes, you’re in trouble…”
All emotions that came up during those first meditation sessions.
And then, it somehow got easier. 10 minutes would fly by and I’d crave another 10. I’d even have days where I’d be so happy and peaceful that I would be brought to tears.
I started to notice that my need to be busy—to fill my schedule to the brim with things to do—was fading. I was enjoying the newfound space in my calendar, my brain, and in my environment.
Additionally, this daily meditation practice has helped me tune into my intuition in a really powerful way, allowing me to do the things that are most meaningful to myself and those around me. Which, in turn, has helped me become a better listener and coach.
One thing that has come from all of this inner work, is a deep sense of needing to redefine and refocus my efforts.
Gone are the days where posting a recipe gives me a sense of satisfaction and enjoyment. Instead, it feels more like a chore and something I’m doing out of sheer obligation to the people who have been following me for years. So, I’m stopping.
This is something that has taken me quite a while to come to terms with, but something that I know is the right decision. I will still keep up the old archives, so you don’t have to scramble to print out your favorite recipes and save them.
Instead, I want to spend more time exploring topics like mindset, meditation, growth, and creativity. I also see the topic of fertility, and the impact it has on the lives of women, playing a bigger role moving forward. The response I’ve had after opening up about my own struggles just solidified how necessary, powerful, and important this work truly is.
In addition to the blog changing, my 1:1 work will be shifting as well.
I no longer feel the need to help everyone with everything. Instead, I want to focus my efforts on mindset and how our thoughts and beliefs impact our day-to-day lives. This also means less focus on the business side of things; I’ll save that for my time with Propelle.
All in all, I’m excited about what’s in store for this site and my life.
I hope you will continue on this journey with me. And if these changes mean it’s time for us to part ways, please know this: your support, encouragement, and dedication have meant the absolute world to me. I couldn’t have done this without you. And for that, I will be forever grateful.