All of this exploration around anger has been, for lack of a better word, interesting. Just when it feels like things are actually getting worse, like the anger has reached Code Red status, it screams PLOT TWIST and does something spectacular.
It kicks opens a door.
And catapults me through it.
I would have carried on thinking that all of this anger was simply being stirred around if it hadn’t been for a graduation of sorts. I got word that I had reached an important milestone in a course I’m doing, and then something just clicked.
The visual of soaring through the air like a brilliant fireball that had flashed before my eyes during a meditation began to make a lot of sense.
The feelings of expansive energy that have been keeping me up at night? Another piece of the puzzle.
All of this to say, I’ve realized that anger is an important marker for me.
It’s an explosive energy that kicks open a new door.
At first, I get super uncomfortable with it. I fight it, telling myself that it’s wrong or that I’m a horrible person. I finally sink into the anger and allow it to do its thing. When the dust settles, I realize that I’m in new (and exciting) territory.
It happens every time that I get back into meditation or begin energy work.
Why I didn’t connect it sooner is beyond me.
So, here we are. In uncharted territory. A doorway has been open and I’ve stepped through. I’m still waiting for the dust to settle to figure out where I am.
In the meantime, I’m just glad to have stepped through the door.