Expectations

I had a really big A-HA moment today.

My expectations are making me miserable and resentful.

On New Year’s Eve, The Husband handed me a beautiful card that said 2016 was “The Year of Boo” (his name for me). The year I would find what makes me happy and brings me the success that I am constantly going after.

And instead of being filled with a sense of joy and excitement, I broke down into hysterics. (So not the reaction he was going for.)

I felt like I had let him down, had disappointed myself, and been a big, fat, blubbering failure since quitting my corporate J.O.B and striking out on my own. I had jumped from business to business, constantly changing my focus and starting over.

My expectations for myself, and where I felt like I should be as a result, was no where near where I wanted it to be. So instead of readjusting my expectations, I measured myself against them and felt a huge sense of disappointment and failure.

It was as if there’s only one way to measure success, and I consistently fell short.

Today, as I was standing in the kitchen, fuming over something trivial, I realized that those feelings of anger and resentment stemmed from expectations, and not reality. As soon as I decided to let go of them, I felt a wave of relief.

Seriously. I felt actual chills go through my body and a deep sense of relief follow.

I’m not sure why it took me this long to realize what was going on, I’m just glad I realized it. So I can go on with my life, free of the crippling resentment and anger at how things SHOULD have turned out.

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Emily Levenson is a therapist turned holistic health coach, podcaster, meditation encourager, and seeker of everyday magic. Emily recently kicked off her third #The100DayProject, focusing her efforts on daily meditation.

2 thoughts on “Expectations

  1. Kate Porigow

    I really love this post. Me and expectations are good pals… in all aspects of life. Thank you for sharing this, and for the reminder that we are really in charge of our own perspective!

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    1. Emily Levenson

      Thanks lady! So glad it resonated. xo

      Reply

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